The New Year was also probably invented, so that people are able to look back and stop at least for a moment to think where they are and where they are going. Also because people by nature need to believe in something (or my people at least) and every now and then they need to reminded that there is hope and there are new things coming for them.
This is my strong belief about NY. And I know that you will say – yes, but why do you need a special day to do that – you can do it all year round. Well, not everybody is as smart as me and you, some people need to be reminded.
And I also believe that there is no need to fall into too deep looking backs since it is not the end of the world – just the end of the year :).
My 2007
I will not use anything too special to remind me what was there in 2007, because what was really there in 2007 is what is left in my mind and in my heart right now.
January
Tonya, the old Plovdiv, writing a long application during the night and being more and more bored with work. Being lost in space and having no clue where to go – just a faint idea that AI might potentially be the place.
February
Egypt, the Red Sea, exercises on the beach with the sun rising and the sea coming back to the shore, thoughts, pieces, fears. I was taken into pieces and it took me quite some time to be glued back together. And Nastya was right saying that I can’t loose anything – worst case scenario I would spend a wonderful holiday in Egypt. Well, it was an interesting holiday and journey.
March
Back to reality and thinking what to do where to go. Staying in the bank was no longer an option. I knew there should be something, the only problem was – what is that something. Work – home – work. E-mails and skypes with Agata and JC. And sending the application few days before the deadline with 100% awareness what I am doing this time.
April
Endless interviews, Easter, spring, work – home- work.
May
Packing, moving, leaving, saying good byes but never being sorry for what I did. I don’t know where was my head when I did something like that – to leave a dream job for the average young graduate with a dream salary and prospects in the super bank. Probably because I am not the average graduate…
June
First days in Budapest, first meetings, first fears, first frustrations, Brussels, Rotterdam, airports, trains, buses, last times, moments, wine on benches.
July
Prague – a dream come true, late night walks on the Charles Bridge, coins in Vlatava, good friends, old friends, new friends.
August
Living between Bratislava, Prague and Budapest, buses, endless hours of Friends and Princess bakeries, the most terrible allergy ever. Turkey, feeling at home, laughing, smelling the sea, enjoying the sun, getting my head lost in the endless crowd, a rainy birthday, working, working, working.
September - November
Hours spent on buses, trains, airplanes, traveling Europe, discovering myself, the world, and endless emotions of striving to do it right, to understand what is right, what is good. Feeling weak and feeling strong.
December
Romania, home, Christmas, and the endless questions what to do next and where to go, what is right and what is wrong.
If I had to choose what have changed:
- I have become I little bit more patient, just a bit, a very little bit
- I have become much more reflective
I believe in myself again
- I believe in the things that I am doing
- And as Tonya said – I look happy
I might be living in the airport, and people around me might be having babies and getting married, but I look a bit happier.
I don’t know whether I didn’t fall into an extreme by doing what I am doing now, but I tend to fall into extremes, still this is my life and there is only now I can live it.
The word of the year:
People
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